
Question:
BELOVED OSHO, I HAVE
A STORY TO TELL: IT HAPPENED IN THE EARLY SECOND HALF OF THE MONTH OF JUNE,
1985, WHEN I WAS LIVING IN RAJNEESHPURAM.
ONE MORNING, SOON AFTER I WOKE, I TOOK A PEE IN THE BATHROOM, AND FELT A TIDAL
WAVE OF RELAXATION DESCENDING ON ME AS IT SOMETIMES HAPPENS IN THE LAST STAGE
OF YOUR MEDITATION TECHNIQUES.
THE RELAXATION WAS ALL OVER ME, AND MY EYELIDS CLOSED GENTLY AND INSTANTLY.
I COULDN'T MOVE OR STOP THIS TIDAL WAVE FEELING. AS MY EYES CLOSED, YOU
APPEARED IN ALL YOUR BEAUTY.
YOUR PHYSICAL PRESENCE WAS SO REAL AND INTOXICATING -- AS ONE SEES AND FEELS
YOU IN A DARSHAN, SITTING IN THE FIRST ROW. BUT IN A MOMENT YOU STARTED
DISAPPEARING, BEGINNING FROM ALL SIDES OF YOUR BODY, AND A DEEP BLACKNESS
STARTED TAKING YOUR PLACE. SOON ALL THAT WAS LEFT WAS A DEEP, DEEP BLACKNESS OF
A KIND I HAVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE.
IT GAVE A FEELING OF TERROR, AND LASTED FOR A COUPLE OF MINUTES. AS I CAME OUT
OF THIS EXPERIENCE I WAS STUNNED, DAZED, ALMOST DRAINED. I WAS FULL OF A DEEP
INNER PAIN; I WAS VERY SHAKY AND UPSET, AS THE MEANING THAT SOMEHOW HAD
REVEALED ITSELF TO ME WAS IN THE IMPACT OF THE EXPERIENCE.
IT MEANT PHYSICAL DEATH TO YOUR BODY, OR AT LEAST A DEATH-LIKE CALAMITY. I
TRIED TO FORCE MYSELF TO BE NORMAL, BUT COULDN'T TALK TO PEOPLE.
WHEN MY FRIEND NOTICED I WAS DISTURBED, AND ASKED ME THE REASON, I TOLD HER OF
THE INCIDENT.
I CONTINUED TO FEEL THAT SOMETHING GRAVE WAS PEEPING OVER THE HORIZON. IN THE
LATE AFTERNOON WHEN I WAS WORKING, SUDDENLY OUT OF NOWHERE A DEEP TIDAL WAVE OF
RELAXATION OVERPOWERED ME AGAIN.
MY EYES CLOSED AND A BRIGHT PURPLE COLOR APPEARED ALL OVER IN FRONT OF ME,
AMIDST WHICH YOU APPEARED AGAIN IN YOUR FULLEST GLORY, BEAMING.
BEAUTIFUL FLOWERS WERE POPPING OPEN ALL AROUND YOU LIKE BUBBLES -- IT WAS
PSYCHEDELIC! I FELT NOW FULLY ASSURED THAT NO REAL HARM WAS GOING TO COME TO
YOUR BODY.
WHATEVER CALAMITIES CAME WOULD PASS AWAY, AND A MORE-GLORIOUS-THAN-EVER PHASE
FOR YOU AND YOUR PEOPLE WOULD FOLLOW.
IN THE LATER MONTHS A GREAT CALAMITY DID COME TO YOUR BODY IN THE FORM OF YOUR
ILLEGAL ARREST BY THE POWER-BLINDED U.S. GOVERNMENT -- WHICH WAS A PHYSICAL
THREAT TO YOUR LIFE.
NOW, IN THE LIGHT OF THE FIRST PART OF MY STORY TURNING INTO A REALITY, IT IS
QUITE NATURAL FOR ME TO FEEL THAT THE SECOND PART OF THE STORY HAS ALREADY
STARTED TURNING INTO A REALITY, SLOWLY SLOWLY.
BELOVED MASTER, WOULD YOU LIKE TO COMMENT?
Osho:
Pratap, you have
related your story with absolutely the right interpretation. It needs no
comment.
This is a good sign.
Slowly slowly, to other sannyasins also, the same is going to happen.
They will come to feel an experience, and they will also be able to interpret
it correctly.
I can only say you are blessed that your mind has not interfered, has not
misled you, and your heart has been in complete control seeing the experience
and interpreting it.
OshO
Beyond Enlightenment
Chapter #5
Chapter title: Questions: Exposing your way from ignorance to innocence
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